Tell me baby.

ashleybaby917 @ 2008-08-06T18:16:00

2008-08-06T22:23:01Z

I weigh 277.4 now.
I have an amazing urge to binge so I am writing this. I've had 430 calories so far today,
but my Mom is making pasta for dinner, I think I can get out of it if I say I feel sick.
I already told her I did earlier.
So I have until this thursday, not tomorrow but the one afterward
to lose a bit of weight,
enough to make my friends go wow.
That's when I am going to the beach.
I thought it was tomorrow but luckily it wasn't.
I am watching South Park again
and My uncle should be putting cable back in my room soon,
my Grandmom should give me some money soon,
and I would be able to get a laptop.
I would have to wait to get internet though.
I could just write a diary until then....
My hunger is going away.
I like it, but
I don't want to give into it.
I am wondering why some people can be so thin, but eat so much. It really pisses me off.
I was also in the pool for 40 min, burned..... around 700 calories.
I hope to lose something,
to make up for my binging these past few days.

<3

Day One

2008-08-04T17:09:38Z

Height: 5' 3"
Hw: 330
Cw: 278.6
Gw1: 230
FGw: 110

I feel so sick. I binged big time last night. I have a headache and I am going to the boardfwalkw ith friends on Thursday. I wanna lose weight fast! At least 5 lbs. I am starting 2468 today. I hope to have great results. School kicked me out again, for ebeing behind on work. I hope they take me back or I can start another home school program. I don't want to go back to school a freshman. I want to go back a sophmore, I am pissed. They should really be a little more understanding.

I feel empty and I like it.

ashleybaby917 @ 2008-07-15T10:19:00

2008-07-15T14:20:36Z

I am pretty much free right now, none of my friends are on...
anyone wanna talk?

AIM: ShHdThWrld
Yahoo: Ashleybaby917@yahoo.com
MSN: Ashleybaby917@hotmail.com

ashleybaby917 @ 2008-07-15T10:00:00

2008-07-15T14:07:20Z

I couldn't weight myself today,
so I am parinoid.
I am at my friend's house and last night my crush slept over.
I told her I liked him and at 3 in the morning she asked him if he liked me back,
he never answered.
He's home now and I haven't talked to him since he was asked.
I am really nervous,
because I don't know why anyone would want a fat fuck like me.
He's so thin too!
He just eats anything.
I controlled myself enough last night not to eat a dognut in front of him so I am cool.
What worried me was the smount of popcorn I ate last night.
We went and saw Hell Boy 2,
I was disgusted with myself,
I felt so fat sitting in those seats,
they felt so small to me.
Just thinking about it makes me wanna cry.
I don't know if I should message my crush about the question or not.
I've never had any type of relationship,
expecially a boyfriend.
I dunno,
I just feel nasty.

- xoxo Ashley